Saying Goodbye

Today my heart is heavy. 

Today I feel sadness. 

Yesterday, Nanny Childers was laid to rest.  She is the grandmother of my best friend (Missy) since third grade.

I grew up in a small community, graduated with 48 people, the kind of place where everybody knows everybody AND their business.  But, when times get tough, everyone will have your back.  The community comes together in times of heartache and need. 

The Childers/Wyse family has supported me for a very long time.  Like I said, we've been a part of each other's lives since I was in third grade.  Best I can calculate (I don't have kids, so I have no idea), you're about eight or nine years old in third grade, therefore they've been a part of my life for about 30 years.

Nanny and Papa (Papa passed away a year ago :( ), were pillars of the community.  They went to every one of my basketball games, told me how good I played after each game, always greeted me, no matter where, with a hug and a kiss.  Papa was always ready with a piece of candy too.  They were both amazing people.  Loved me like I was one of their own, loved and cared for my parents like they were their own.

I don't like funerals.  But, I do feel it is necessary for closure and paying respect.  I know it is a part of the life cycle, but it sucks.  I've said good bye to all of my grandparents at a very young age and in my adult years. 

I hurt today, for Missy's family.  Her family is MY family.  We all know Nanny is with Papa again and smiling and having a wonderful time.  But her earthly family misses her dearly.

Momma went with me to the funeral.  Afterward, she told me she didn't want to get old.  Believe me, I don't want her to get old either.....or Honey....or anyone for that matter.  It's too hard to even think about. 

We all should enjoy, cherish, and love our earthly family and friends.  And when the time does come for a family member to be with our Father in Heaven, I will rejoice in the fact that I will be with them again, some day.

Wishing you all much love and many blessings :)